 Let me hear you call my name. I blog to express not to impress. The sentence structure that were used are meant for me. I had graduated and I am currently working at a small red dot, Singapore. 20 February makes me turn a year older, 10 February marks my anniversary. 1 Heaven + 1 Son = Heaven There are many things to be discovered, but I won't disclose here. :D More than words. You know you love me, too.
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My heart pours to my son..
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Saleem....u may be to young to understand and even too young to know what is going on. Ibu loves you too much even if it calls to exchange for my life. If I have a choice, I dun want to work. If I have a choice, I would rather stay tired looking after you myself. If I have a choice, I won't let you stay far apart from me and If I have a choice, I would definitely discipline you by myself. Every human has a choice to make and we will definitely have to choose. Maybe as for my situation, its superly hard for me to even make a choice. I was barely there in the working world, before that I am working for 4 years but in a different industry. The moment you came into my life, it was so hard for me to even leave you for a second. You cries out loud and even smile out loud. My love for you is too much to let go that people keeps on telling me that I pamper you too much. But this people just dun understand... that you're my son. You doesn't belong to anyone just by name. You belongs to me by black and white that's what matters. When i'm down with no one to turn to..trust me all my pain is gone whenever you were there....you're more than my life could ever contain. I do have feelings...when people scold you, i do feel the pain but I can't tell, when people push you away too far...i am definitely angry but sometimes talking and arguing too much isn't gonna do us any good. I know that some people you know dislike you, i knew it very well and I just kept quiet..hoping that in the future when they had their own child...they too will experience the same thing that they did to me...hurting me and u unintentionally. Just because you are naughty people hate you. You loves to shout and at times you are being just rude... but as a mother, i accept whatever ways people look at you. But as a mother...i will never,ever give up on you for eternity. Be it good or bad, wrong or right, better or worst..you are part of my life and i can't abandoned the responsibility given to me. You are being send to me for a reason and as for that i accept you as you are. The world, the life, the friends, the family and everyone can leave you...but not me. As long as I breathe.....you are with me always.. |