 Let me hear you call my name. I blog to express not to impress. The sentence structure that were used are meant for me. I had graduated and I am currently working at a small red dot, Singapore. 20 February makes me turn a year older, 10 February marks my anniversary. 1 Heaven + 1 Son = Heaven There are many things to be discovered, but I won't disclose here. :D More than words. You know you love me, too.
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Month of Love....
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Yeah....time shows 11.53am.... 1 more hour to my lunch time. At work browsing through all my e-mails sent in and out.Busy? well...but not me... I was kinda free for this week as i get in for the 2nd shift at work. Month of February....most of them said its the month of love...the month where i was born by the bond of my parents love for each other... their love is my birth.. Celebrated my birthday last 4days,my sis yesterday and anniversary last 14 days. Complete....Loving my life each and everyday. Trying my best to please all those around me from my family to my friends and even my enemy....being a peacemaker is great..hahahahha... Life is too short to be cranky and angry...i know its easier said than done. But again...it all lies in your willpower as a human...how you wanna live your life and what you wanna be... our mind is the strongest weapon that we can ever requested from GOD.. Believe in something...it will go your way.... believe in nothing it will also go your way... like my brother always said... "whatever the mind believe, it can achieve"!! its his favourite quote.... I've been there and done there....I've tasted all the happiness and bitterness in my life thruout my living in this world for 25 years... where there is happiness, it lies your sadness and vice versa...as i always emphasize...i'm a normal being with a normal needs and wants...I dun hope to get rich neither do i want to change myself being others...as a normal being with feelings...(born to have one..)at times i'm happy with myself but at times i'm not... I rise and shine by myself...i stand facing all the obstacles by myself...and my tears are my bestfriend...I heal and recover all by myself without letting anyone knows and none understand the fear and sadness that I had deep inside me... I lift the burden by myself.... no one knows as well....everything i do,i do it myself.... from my own welfare to my son's....i'm arranging it all....everywhere, i go I look like as if i'm being a single mother...but the fact is that, i do have a husband...and he's still well and alive... however, i do appreciate his responsibility towards my son and his family....he done so much as he could....even though we disagree with each other most of the time....well, what to do...its life again as i may say....as much as i wanna try comforting friends and family with words of wisdom and care...i agree that not all take those kind comforting words with gracious....they were just thinking that I had a motive of my own to manipulate them. I'm sincere in helping....but they dun agree.... fine... let it be.... may god forgive you for hurting other beings....There's more in me that I could give, but life is too short and i'm afraid that even by the time i could give my all....i would be gone by then.... Last but not least.... My love is my family and my closest friends...to my mum and dad, stepmum and stepdad,my family,my brothers and sisters and especially my son...you may not understand me...not then or even now....its ok, just remain that way...if you dun like me or dun understand my kind intention...its alright...let it remain that way...i dun wish you all to be liking me overnight even though we've been together for ages... but as for myself I'm certain and i will continue to be doing what i have done all along...advising and sharing the love if had...as i've got no wealth or assets to share.... Hope you all forgive me for all the words being said...i dun need you all to love me or even like me....but just treat me as a human and be nice....and off i went finding for the peace myself.... |