 Let me hear you call my name. I blog to express not to impress. The sentence structure that were used are meant for me. I had graduated and I am currently working at a small red dot, Singapore. 20 February makes me turn a year older, 10 February marks my anniversary. 1 Heaven + 1 Son = Heaven There are many things to be discovered, but I won't disclose here. :D More than words. You know you love me, too.
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My Grief....
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Time shows 2.51pm. Here I am at work being very busy ever since the new training/meeting rooms in cisco has open. But thinking again busy is great especially when u have nothing to do. 4 hours more...and off I went. I didn't know whether I should be feeling happy or vice versa. I'm still down over yesterday separation incident. I still goes to work as usual, i ate and even joke despite me having and keeping my grief sealed inside! For your info its not a separation with a spouse thingy that makes me overly upset...but its the separation from my child! Though its a while but my minds keep running wild about what's gonna happen while he's there. For pete's sake...he's only 3 and he has been like travelling and travelling like nobody business....I'm so worried for that. I manage to kiss him yesterday before parting our ways. He was asking me where am i going , and i replied that i will be right here in the car waiting for him to come back... :-( The moment he turn his back on me, I quietly sneak out from the car being watched by my brother. If only i can follow him....i would have already done so... but I need to work even though my heart is yelling at me to stop working. I felt miserable....and before I knew it i was crying all the way while walking home. I was so sad,upset,down and disappointed. I pray hard so that he would be safe and sound in the land of others. May Allah protects my family from any dangers and mishaps and may I be granted an open heart to make a wisest decision for the sake of my lovely son. |