 Let me hear you call my name. I blog to express not to impress. The sentence structure that were used are meant for me. I had graduated and I am currently working at a small red dot, Singapore. 20 February makes me turn a year older, 10 February marks my anniversary. 1 Heaven + 1 Son = Heaven There are many things to be discovered, but I won't disclose here. :D More than words. You know you love me, too.
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Brain triggering....
Monday, September 28, 2009
I had a meaningful weekends. Spent with my loved ones. Went to Paman Bobo and Paman Yip house yesterday via lorry, which Fareed is driving. Thanks Bro...u are such a superb driver. Went to cik Nora house after that. Ate bakso which i dun really fancy ( because of the meat)! After that...i went to umah kak Dija, dad's cousin, cik Mohsen and last my favourite house... Abg Zul. Even though its only been 5 house which we covered before we called it end of the day, I'm very contented and very happy. All of us went back home taking the lorry again which this time round its my dad who drives. We all were seated at the back of the lorry. Nazmi behind, me and Nazeera in the same row and Nizar was in the open leaning at the back of the lorry. My sweetie was seated in front as we both had just finished reprimand him for being extremely naughty. I was sad though because he didn't want to sit with me just because me and nizar scolded him. But he's jumping around on people sofa... though he's a kid, some people may not like it..and even thought that we didn't teach him., which we did. As my thoughts ran wild...without me realising it, my dad has already sped off and we are already in the middle of the expressway. My mind still uneasy..dun know why. As usual I started to be deep in thoughts... thinking abt the incident when i scold saleem, Abg Anuar and even my own uncle...Paman Bobo. Everyone has their difficulties and their happiness. At that moment of time...only ALLAH understand my sadness for them. When things wants to happen it will definitely happens without fail. One of them was sick where the doctor was saying that his cancer cells has spread thruout his whole body. His tummy is bloated. From a promising young man, he was sick till his bones. Getting skinny and skinnier as days pass by. Paman bobo was also sick as well... as norm, cancer of the brain has spread thruout his whole body. From a macho and strong man he became skinny also till bones. half of his body is no longer functioning. Very pitiful when i see the both of them...lucky for them they have their family as their backbone. Family to share weal and woes. I wonder if the same thing does happen to me. will my family be there for me or will they shun me? Families giving morale support and be there no matter what happen. Suddenly while thinking, i turn to peep at my son to see what he was doing. I saw him asleep on my mom's lap and leg on my dad's. I started to feel overwhelmed. I love my son irregardless of what happen, even with his status.... i began to feel very,very upset. Feeling so bad is covering me. I scolded him just now. How could I right? But i'm only human..... Mom's love is incomparable.... but i wonder if the children understand all this. Because i knew that most of the children don't.... I started to feel sorry for my mom.... now i understand how she felt for both my beloved mom...its definitely not easy to bring up our children. we want the best for them which at the same time we also dun wish to see them getting hurt in the process. Then again no children will ever understand that. I sit still and quietly...thinking more intensely, thinking abt death and what will become of me if my parents is gone... what would be of me.... Humans..... all humans.... must always believe that no matter what we are not immortal.... we will be gone one day. Sadly to say, i'm really afraid that I cannot accept if that were to come. Considering that my dad is sick and mummy's too.... Hope mama will be healthy also... in years to come. I finally felt that i should be taking care of them physically and mentally, repay them, do not hurt them and always give in to them as I really cannot afford to lose them in this moment of time when i'm starting to enjoy my family lives. To my son and hubby...I love you both more than anything on earth. When i nag doesn't mean i hate...i love you both too much that i'm willing to sacrifice anything. To all my parents.... you meant more to me than the whole wide world. I dun care even i go unnoticed but i do care if you all do not notice me... till then... do take care my Dearest family. |