 Let me hear you call my name. I blog to express not to impress. The sentence structure that were used are meant for me. I had graduated and I am currently working at a small red dot, Singapore. 20 February makes me turn a year older, 10 February marks my anniversary. 1 Heaven + 1 Son = Heaven There are many things to be discovered, but I won't disclose here. :D More than words. You know you love me, too.
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Where is my conscience??
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Today marks the 5th day of the fasting month. However, I can't fast due to girls "monthly" leave.. LOL. Stationed at AP today because one of my colleague has to go on a half day leave for today. Great as its been sometimes I never saw her... Yesterday in HQ though.... People there was warmth, great and full of smiles...not forgetting, multi-racial and national....hahahaha.... As usual life has been the same thruout this week and all the months before.... But something happen today that really make me realised deeply and regret..... I'm actually very CRUEL..... All this while...I failed to see and learn that.. Allah loves me. Not forgetting our prophet, Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. I failed to see that Allah loves us unconditionally...more that anybody else. As I started to realise and amend....I look around and thinking to myself... I felt deeply hurt as i've SINNED too much.... He create us beautifully...with everything and anything that we ever want. He gave us kenikmatan, rezeki and all beautiful rahmat but why did we return him sin and nothing but dosa....?? Aku rasa amat hina lah....to be truthful. With my mouth spouting nonsense, kutuk people, talking abt people and kurang ajar. Greed and disrespect is clouding me... I cried silently to myself in the corner and trying to come with the terms that its been so long that I last remember him. He create me, he gave me life, shelter, thought and he even gave me rezeki in all sorts of form.... But did I ever thank him? even for a while? What was I thinking all this while? I look ugly....wide forehead? But who create that? Its Allah....the one and only.... Now I'm sure that everything happen has a reason.... the way he creates and the way he give us life... its all with a reason. Because Allah tak akan pernah menyusahkan kiter semua...tapi kiter yg menyusahkan diri kiter.... When bad things happen who do we blame? did we ever stop awhile and think?? I am only human.... normal humans... I do make mistakes... But my main aim now is to be good and very good... I wanna help my dad and my mum... to overcome their difficulties..but as i mention i'm only human....And perhaps my only weapon right now is to pray for them. Its time to repent lah AIN.... "Berpuasalah dan berbaiklah di bulan puasa ini, kerana belom tentu kiter akan berjumpa bulan puasa yg akan datang" insya-allah.... |